My lost career and my obsession

It's been a long time since I was working as a recruiting manager. To be honest, i spent the last couple of years working in a totally different field.

Life is just like that - one day you're happy about your position, than something strikes you early in the morning and you decide to make a career change. 
i made a big leap, literally, to a field that I was totally unaware of. I stared to work in a business intelligence company.

I was just tired of interviewing people all day, so I believed this could be my chance, my new start. Also, despite the fact that I was meeting so many people on a daily basis, I could not start a normal relationship for more than two years... I felt pretty lonely actually.
You know how it goes with the working ethic... Yeah, I was meeting many beautiful women in the interview processes I quite successfully lead, but I couldn't really invite any of them for a coffee.

So the  new life has started. I believed i would be able to find my true love and my true calling in the new job waiting for me.
Well, I was wrong.
All I found out was that I got professionally sick. I mean, all meetings I had, I was leading an interview in my head.

When I found a new woman in this company, and there were plenty of beautiful women to say the truth, I just could not help myself - I was looking all the time for her strength and weaknesses, using all the techniques in the interview like I wrote about it here, and sort of could not get rid of this point of view, no matter how much I tried and wanted to. I become obsessed.  

I actually decided to visit a specialist, to help me with my problem. But you  know these doctors...
They just charge big do little.
in one moment I have been so tired of myself and of my problems, that I was actually thinking about ending my career completely and start a business.
However, I've never get quite a guts to  make such a move and do what it takes to make it happen.

So that's the story. And the lesson?
Sometimes we want to make a career change, in order to deal with a problem, that's not related to the work itself.
Like me - I wanted to progress in my personal life and changed a job just because of that.  However, it did not work. It never could... The problem was in myself, not in my job. And now I know, it's always like that.

Next time I get into the similar situation, I'll think twice and act once.
You know, I'll be so happy to get another chance. To be able to come back to my old job, maybe brake some  rules but at least do what I really love to do. However, it does not work like that in this economy Jobs of recruiting managers are pretty tough to get and once you let your position slip, there are hundreds of fishes waiting to take your spot, some sharks included...